this didn't help

i don't remember what the sun looks like. all i can see when i gaze out of my window is a gray, blank sky. there is no hint of sun anywhere. believe me, if there was i would be the first to know. i often find myself turning my head quickly towards the window in the off chance that i will see the smallest hint of a shadow. but nothing. there aren't even outlines of clouds! it's just utterly and totally blank.

the other day brett and i were watching the weather in the hopes that we may see the sun icon shining over the seven day forcast. but instead of giving us that gift, the weatherman informed us that in December west michigan was the cloudiest place in the WORLD. not the state, not the country, not the western hemisphere, the WORLD.

i don't belong here.